This time of the year, regardless if you’re into resolutions or not, bring forth reflection and looking back.
I’ve been journaling on and off for 6 years, and it’s amazing what patterns start to emerge when I go back and read some of my entries.
According to my numerology chart 2019 is a year my 9 Personal year. This year is all about unraveling, reflection, and letting go. How fitting.
Although 2018 offered some incredible experiences, relationships, and opportunities. I acted in 2 regional theater production, worked on Short film with my closest friends, assistant directed a large holiday show, was the lead in a TV pilot episode and more. Yet, I still felt like I wasn’t doing enough. I was smiling on the outside, but I was hurting on the inside.
I picked up my journal and begin reading over the past few years of my life.
Like the clockwork of seasons, I found myself in similar, if not the exact same situations I had been in years prior. This left me thinking very deeply on my goals.
I’ve always been a “goals” person, but after reading back over the last few years of my inner monologue, I realized Goals just aren’t cutting it.
Goals are results based. In our culture and system, achievements are used as way to judge and determine an individuals value that system. So me setting and missing my goal of making $100K+ year, left me feeling like I was worthless to the system.
I needed something else to keep me motivated to actually changed. Then I found Atomic Habits by James Clear.
I’m just a few hours into the audiobook, but it’s already re-framing the way I look at goals and habits.
Our habits are what causes us to change. When we focus on the habits, or system of behavior is when real results begin to burst through.
As I move forward into 2019 I am going to dedicate my year to becoming aware of habits that are no longer serving me, and adding new ones based on the person I am becoming. Goals set the direction, habits are fuel to the fire.
I will continue this exploration and share my discoveries on being a habits focused creator.
Onwards & Upwards,
✌🏿+❤️ – Ru